Surviving

I never thought of myself as a survivor… to be honest I didn’t think I would even be alive right now. I somehow managed to graduate high school and now in my holidays I am slowly beginning to re shape and re store my life. Although certain things such as my dad treating my mum like crap still causes anger in my life, I am trying to learn how to deal with my emotions instead of lashing out. It has been 3 weeks since I have cut!! It hasn’t been long but at least it is progress. People who have provided me support on this website always told me that things will somehow get better… I didn’t believe them at the time but now I know they were right, It takes time but they were right. I know that I will fall back down every now and then but hopefully I won’t ever fall as far as I was when I was cutting and tried to commit. It sounds philosophical and cliche but finally I feel like my life is starting, like things are finally looking up for me. To everyone out there who feel like its the end… I know you won’t find truth in these words but try to believe that it will eventually get better if you try just believe it is YOUR life and you can vanquish those demons who don’t deserve to be a part of each of your wonderful lives.