This may sound really stupid, but, please, try to think like me for a second.
My birthday was like three or four days ago. I made a post about it but most of you cared only about the religious debate that it brought. Anyway, the day before my birthday my bird escaped and I’m destroyed. He was my only friend (can you believe it?), all I have and I really love him. I think he’s dead. I am really hurt about this, I’ve lost loved ones before, but I’ve never cried like this. I’ve been crying for 3 days in a row.
Shit, my “friends”, those assholes, are knocking the door because they want money for weed. This may sound ridiculous too, but I am afraid of them.
I miss him so much! I can’t explain how much. I’ve never felt this pain before. My eyes hurt. Stabbing, pain, chest. That bird stopped me when I was about to commit suicide, by calling me. He was always next to me when I was crying or whenever I was feeling bad.
Please, just keep him safe. You can kill me, but take care of him. Do not do this for me, do it for him.
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I’m sorry you lost your bird. 🙁 You don’t sound stupid, I understand that kind of pain very well. Only for me it was a cat. Oddly enough, I think it hurts worse when you lose a pet. The only thing I can say is that you should keep crying it out if you have to. Don’t hold it in. And that eventually the pain will lessen. Though, I hope your bird comes back to you or is safe somewhere.
I saw one of your birthday posts a few days ago and I meant to comment on it. I’m sorry I didn’t now. I never know if what I have to say will help. If I remember correctly, you were upset about getting older (turning 14?). I wanted to tell you that I used to feel the same way. I was never in any hurry to grow up, it scared me. It still does – and I’m 21 now. But I just want to say that you should try not to let it depress you too much. Try to enjoy being 14 while it’s here, because time goes by fast, it truly does. So just focus on the present moment, instead of your fears of the future. Easier said than done. But it can’t hurt to try. I hope you feel better, PennyroyalTea.
Thanks. I really can’t explain this pain, I feel so much pain and it’s just horrible. And yes, I was (am) upset about turning 14. This were ok at 13, I was used to everything. I’ll try to enjoy this, but I can’t see how.
I hope it comes back to you, or lives a wonderful and exotic life. :’o