ive been thinking about my dad a lot lately. I miss him so much 🙁 most of the time I don’t even feel like hes dead, I feel like he gone but only for the moment. I feel lik hes at work and when I wake up in the morning i’ll be in my room, my dad just getting home from work at 6 am on the dot. when I walk into the living room, he had just sat down for the first time since he got home. he still had his hat on and his tee-shirt but his pants had been draped over the back of the couch (my dad would only wear pants if he left the house. it didn’t matter who was at our house, he never had pants on) im mid-way through the living room when he looks up at me with that big goofy smile, that I love so much, and says “morning peanut”. i’d sit on the opposite couch and hang out with him till I had to get ready for school. we would sit and talk, laugh, just enjoy each others company. that’s what I miss the most, just me and him. that’s how it always was. he was the only person I always had. hes the only person I need, and now that hes gone I realize hes the only person I want. I wish I had realized that sooner. there are a lot of wishes I could make right now but theres only one thing I wish for anymore. I don’t care if I have nice things, food, oreven health… I just want my dad back.
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Sadly we can’t grant your wish, bring. We can, however, try to lessen the pain you feel by listening to you. 🙂
We can share our pain with you and you can share with us. It may help.
thank yu so much this means so much to me!!!
You are welcome, bring.
Now come on. Let’s talk. Maybe it’ll help. 🙂 just talk a bit and I’ll be here to listen.
I don’t really no wat to say really
Hmm, do you perhaps feel a bit uncertain about talking here? Or you seriously don’t know what to say?
If you don’t know where to start, then start by saying how you feel at the moment. What emotions do you feel and what emotions you WANT to feel. What is causing them. Are you still thinking about your dad? And then go on, if you’d like.
I really just don’t no were to start… I feel ok atm just saw one direction on ellen <3 ughh I love niall hehe but mostly im sad I can fake it really well tho sometimes I even fool my self and I forget about my life I wish I could just feel notmal I wish cutting my self didn't sound so good most of the time I don't even no why I feel this way I think about my dad all the time tho and it don't make me wanna cut but I still do I just don't understand y I love it so much
Bring,
Doing things you like can help a lot 🙂 (Between you and me, I really like Niall too. But Harry’s hair is soo…)
If you don’t mind me asking, then when did your dad die?
September 23, 2012 and plz call me Mackenzie 🙂
Mackenzie is a pretty name 🙂 Can I call you Mac, though, for convenience sake?
Your wounds are still fresh. I lost my dad three, almost four now, years ago. I took it very hard at first. But I know that it gets better. I lived through it and I know that you, Mackenzie, can get through it too 😀 and I will help you. It’ll be hard and it will take tremendous amounts of time, but it gets better eventually. You will get better 🙂
yu have no idea how much yur helping me already and yess yu can call me mac
Mac,
And I want to help you some more. Sadly, though, this doesn’t have a very nice chatting system. And the different time zones are hurting my brain, so how about some other place? MSN? Skype? Email?
Or, if you’re not comfortable with that, then just lurk around on this site and poke me in the ribs sometimes 🙂 because we don’t have to talk all the time if you don’t want that. 😉
facebook??
Mac,
Sorry, I don’t have facebook and I probably never will. In my opinion; facebook is not worth all the trouble it brings. You can never delete your account and… Well, it just leaves a bad taste in my mouth.
We can still talk here whenever we’re both online. You just have to comment on my posts and I have to comment on your posts. And just keep your eye open, because I’m online here some days, about the same time we started talking. Notice that little column on the side of the site on the front page? See my name and you can start posting new stuff. If you’re really desperate, just write a post with a title called just “Sinine” or something to that effect. I’ll come running, unless something unearthly just suddenly stops me, kay? 😉
(No, but I still have an msn and a skype if you want. I also have a twitter and a blog, but those wont help much.)
im sure we’ll find a way thanks again 🙂
Mac,
You’re welcome! 🙂
I’ll just try to finish up some conversations around here and then I’m off to bed. You can always email me 🙂 you can see my email, right? Or do I have to give it to you?
I got it
🙂