I know i will completely regret this tomorrow as i just drank a whole bottle of wine stuff and it doesnt take me much to get drunk. I dont even really know why i’m writing this. I dont even see why anyone would ever possibly give a single fucking shit about any of my shittly little life. like a lot of posts this will probably get no reply. and i always feel sorry for the people that get no replys but i never reply to them i just wish in my head that i could, but nothing would ever be good enough to say anythign to them to make them feel better anyway so why should i bother. Alcohol. seriously. why aint everyone an alchololic? it makes everything better doesnt it? i mean i feel like i wanna fucking die and i find it fucking hilarious! its awesome. even writing this is funny as fuck. i am so pathetic.
Like a lot of people i’ve been a hoverer for a while reading everyones posts. Feeling a little bit better and a little bit worse for various reasons. Like better because im not the only person who feels like a total fucking retarded fuck and a little worse that there are more people than just me that want to die.
its so sad, think about it, we have been born into this world. what are the chances of that, think about it. we are us. the only us we will ever be, noone will ever be us again and we hate ourselves!
why the FUCK DO WE FEEL LIKE THIS?
why is this life so fucking shit.
why do other peoples opnions matter to us so much?
i felt like this for as long as i can remember. i want to die, but i dont really?
how does that make sense?
i only want to be happy
HOW ARE HAPPY PEOPLE HAPPY?????????????????????
I DONT GET IT
what have i got to do to be happy@?
i can be happy for 2minutes.
then my brain tells me off, tells me to be sad.
because im a loser.
pathetic fucking being that shouldnt be here anyway.
I hate this life but im too pathetic to die cos im too scared to do it.
WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME?????????????????????????????????????
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Hi, I know exactly what you mean. I’m an alcoholic and a weed smoker so yeah :/ I don’t get i either. How do you get happy? I don’t even know what it feels like? How can you be sure you are happy for two minutes?
I’m also a lurker. Reading a lot of the posts not know how I should feel because of them. I also feel sad for the posts getting no response :/ and I can’t bring myself to reply either. I don’t quite know how to feel about it :/
And try to eat something perhaps? gives your brain something to do while you’re drunk of your ass 🙂
HAHAHAHA i have to work tomorrow.
last year
lol
i went to work, somone asked me how i am
that is seriously the worst question to ask soemone fucked in the head!
i started crying. i was already liek i dunno an hour late or something for work which is so unlike me cos i get in early usually.
i dont even know what i want to say anymore,
i just dont wanna be here
i feel so bad for my parents
they’ve never done anythin wrong
nothing has ever really been bad to me,
my life isnt that bad.
why do i feel like this?
i know im gonna read this tomorrow and feel like a dick ahhnahaha i dpont even know what im saying anymore
dude please reply i dunno what to do with myself.
its 22.50 and i know i wont get any sleep anymore tonght. i dunno what to do/
i wish i could get some weed it sounds nice
I’m sorry, Just don’t do any of the following: drink more, hurt yourself, call someone you know.
all of the above have been proven to be really bad in the end. Just go to bed . try to sleep 🙂 and if you can’t, try running around or eating something to lose the drunkenness okay 🙂 I’m sorry nothingmatter , I got distracted 🙁