I feel invisible anyway… So why can’t I just disappear? It’s not like anyone would notice. My therapist doesn’t help, the people who are considered “friends” don’t understand, my family doesn’t care… But when I’m reading things online, looking for some sort of help… Everything always says, “just keep hanging on, everything will get better, just wait one more day.” One more day for what? A miracle? Miracles only happen in movies, not in real life.
So many questions but I’m talking to myself, the random thoughts inside my head…
I apologize to whoever is reading this, it must be very dull.
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i feel very similar.
but the last time i just held on, a wonderful girl walked into my life and im pretty damn grateful i didnt let go when i wanted to.
I have a pretty damn wonderfully amazing girl in my life right now but it seems like every time I turn around I’m doing something wrong or I’m hurting her.
Ah no! Ur not being dull actually. To be blunt therapists are fucking dumb sometimes. Maybe you need to find another one? If that’s too hard to I understand. Just try as much as you can to hang on to this fucked up life, although from what I read you’re trying harder than people understand. I wish your therapist understood this. It’s a pity even wishes don’t always come true!
It’s hard to come by a decent therapist! The world is so harsh and cruel, but I suppose most of the things that are bad that happen are all my own fault anyhow. But yes, I am trying! HARDDDD.