What happens if you’re alone? Forever?..
Well..Let’s start. I’m 17. Long time cutter. I also try to commit suicide. It all started after my parents brought a gun to their head and shot themselves after my 11th birthday. Since then I’ve been alone in this world. My only friend lives in Australia and is 11. But I love her to pieces. I don’t know where I’d be without her.
Hmph. I shouldn’t have started either..You know, cutting. Why did I? A while back I. was dating a guy wayyy to popular for me. Rumors spread that I was just doing it to be more popular since I was an outcast cause I had snakebites. He had a razor at his house and one day I stole it. Broke it in half and began cutting. It felt nice you know? But he found out. And broke it off with me. Because I was a retard he said. That stupid you should have just came to me! More rumors spread..and I tried to commit suicide. Jumped off a roof. But..Something kept me alive in that hospital room. You know what that was? My friends. This was just last year..When I was in 12th grade.
I never knew my mum. I knew my ‘foster’ mum better. I never saw a person more depressed in my LIFE. I mean..She was my mums best friend and I look like her My..Mother..She would just get done crying and would look at me and start again. I felt so bad..I ran away and eventually met Dirk, a boy with the same issue. Depressed and Alone. We became good friends and I moved in with him and some others.
This is a conversation I had with Sophie.
[1:29:22 AM] Sophie: Â Also the girl who has been neglected. The girl with scars and permanent tears..
[1:29:33 AM] Jourdin: The girl that saved a life.
[1:29:35 AM] Jourdin: My life.
[1:29:44 AM] Jourdin: The one who can bring a smile to anyone’s face.
[1:30:11 AM] Jourdin: Those scars may be there. But I have scars on my heart. From you. You being so nice and..amazing.
Yeah she saved my life. And I love her.
My life is just like…Why the wind blows?..I don’t even know why it happened.