and im scared. i always hate the idea of a new year. people try to sugar coat all the shit they go through and say oh ha well now i get to restart. uh no u actually dont. u dont predict the future. u dont know whats ganna happen at all. for all anyone knows it can just be shit all over again that has to cycle back to an end then restart and its an endless fucking cycle of shit. i dont want more shit ive been through enough! why cant i jump in my dads truck and just drive away. go somewhere that i can have fun..and get away from misery i understand everyone has problems they go through but im at the very end. i cant do this anymore…..but i have to. and i guess maybe i need to start being positive. im a horrible writer nothing i say ever makes sense none of goes together just one theme with multiple topics words all put together. eh sounds like my life one theme multiple problems and events one right after the other. fuck.
yay or not to 2013 who knows what it will bring.