Hey.
I am Kriss. 15. From Ohio. I’m a girl, btw. There are SO MANY posts wondering if people know how they feel, if they’re really alone. But please, listen to me!
You are never alone! You may not believe this, you may not care, but you have ME, GOD, FAMILY MEMBERS (yes I am sure you have at least one. If not a family friend or something like that) and other TRUSTED ADULTS. You are not alone. I know how it feels to be alone- I am one of those kids that constantly feels alone. But really we are not alone.
If you were alone, would these kinds of sites exist? If people didn’t know how you feel, would there be people reaching out to you? If God hated you and wanted you dead, would he have let you be born?
Death is not the answer to your pain. It’s gonna hurt people who do care. People like ME. People like everyone else on this site. People who reach out to you. I never had anyone reach out to me for the longest time, because I never spoke about how I feel.
Open up! If you are suicidal, you need people NOW more than EVER. You DESERVE to live. It doesn’t matter. If you’re sitting there, reading this, and telling yourself that you don’t wanna live still, please, rethink it.
You need to stay alive. People will look up to you one day. People don’t look up to me, but I know one day they will. What kind of example will I give them if I kill myself?
This is not an answer- it’s a test to see whether or not you’re strong enough. Prove to every single person that you ARE strong enough. You CAN get through this. YOU ARE BIGGER THAN SUICIDE!!!
Stand up with me now, please. I cannot be the only one that feels like this. 🙂
Thank you for reading.
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Halleluiah sister kriss from Ohio!!! I am standing with you!!! Keep up the good work little sister!!
I really dislike preachers… always the bullshit about “all the people who care” …
Nobody would give a sh*t if I died except of my mother. She’s the only reason I live, if she dies… well… so will I. Don’t even lie to me that if you knew me you’d care, you’d just shrug it off eventually, just like everyone else.
Anyway, my mom, on new year’s eve, she told me that she’s very sad that I didn’t go out to have fun. I’m 20 years old, turning 21 in february, she told me that I’m wasting my life. That I should find some friends. Easier said than done…
She pitied me. I could see that she’s holding back her tears. What a heartwrenching sight, lemme tell you… I know that I’m a disappointment to my family and there’s nothing positive I can do about it. I’m just waiting for the right moment to end my life. Everything I’ve had started crumbling 7 years ago.
The only girl I’ve ever loved left me for some crowd of binge-drinking 17 y/o’s. My friend of 6 years has left me. Nothing’s been going well for me since then. No friends, no love, no motivation to do anything, no hope…
I can’t even seem to find friends online because I’m such an unworthwhile, bland guy. I’m no match for all these cool cats and party animals. Would YOU want to hang out with a gloomy guy? No you wouldn’t. Neither would I…
I’m sorry.
thank you dear.. coming up with this 🙂
Kriss,
You’re so young, but so wise! Bless!
Kriss… I wish I could feel like I had all those people but I honestly don’t honestly honestly… I know I repeat myself in saying this and I hope I don’t seem like a b*tch but it’s soooooo hard to feel wanted in a world where hating myself is normal and liking how I look is a rare, strange occurence…. Feeling wanted, for me, is the same… I applaude you for the effort and I really do appreciate it… I honestly don’t feel people actually care.. After trying for the millionth time to die, I’ve almost given up… I have one more idea and then, maybe, the world can forget about me cuz I really hate it here… I don’t feel bigger than suicide.. I learned at an early age that I was nothing from the people who used me.. I feel like nothing. I feel worthless.. I hate myself because I feel I don’t deserve to live… I wish I was telling you lies and I hope this site can keep me from trying because here, I feel like I can tell my story and people WILL listen to me and understand… THX SO MUCH -Ayr
@KingOfLosers, not true my friend. I do care. Suicide has taken too many,young, old, everything in between. If I could do anything to change your mind I would in a heartbeat. I care a lot for people. I am young,but I know how it feels to be hurt. I get hurt frequently. Suicide hurts me most. I have been suicidal for a long time. But I got the help I needed. You’re no dissapointment. Everyone does things differently. I promise,if you tell me a way to make you feel better I will try my darndest.
@XxBloodi.AryxX, you don’t seem bad. Many people feel bad. I feel bad about me. I sometimes can’t look in the mirror,cause it makes me wanna cry. But I continue, hoping to have someone look me in the eye and say ‘Tell me what’s really up.’ But you DO deserve to live. Everyone has a purpose. I can’t tell you yours- I am just a friend, not a miracle worker. But I can say for certain people DO care, we all just gotta find them. :3 I’m so happy you can tell your story here. I know people listen,cause they listened to me. 🙂 What you have to say is much more important. <Thats to you too, KingOfLosers.
Hey.
I did already reply, but I wanted to touch base a little more with you.
I understand what it’s like to feel like no one gives a crap. I am one of those people who feel like that every day. Granted, I am 15. You mentioned you where, about, I think 20 or so. But that’s okay. People can help, no matter what the age. I do not think you understand what I meant by I would care. I DO care about you. I know I seem kind of like a naiive little kid. You know, “What does she know? She’s not even old enough to do anything.” Well, my good sir, I DO know what it’s like to feel like a dissapointment. To think that, every day, no matter what, no one cares. But people DO care. Your mother cares. And I care. You are obviously a great person- you spend your time with your mom, worrying about her, rather than being a normal adult, going out and having fun with your friends, doing thigns like that after work and whatever it is you do. Honestly, I don’t see how people wouldn’t wanna be your friend knowing you’re like that. I am here for you though. I know I seem like a little kid.. But I have spent most of my life hating everything. In regular school- I homeschool now- kids called me names. Made fun of me. No one liked me. Most people still don’t. The difference between me and you? I don’t let that get to me.
I know it’s hard, being a person and feeling so… Out of touch with other people. I guess that’s how I’d put it. But listen- you’re not alone. I really DO care about you. I recall you saying something about being ‘bland’ and ‘not being any match for partiers’ or something like that. Between you and me, I cannot STAND parties. I am a party planner, yeah. But big groups of people drinking till vodka and whiskey is seeping from their skin really is unappealing. So yeah, if I knew you well, you’d be the kind of guy I’d hang out with. As long as you don’t mind a crazy, insensitive, whackjob of a teenager with a fetish for anime. ‘Cause that’s me.
Sir, I understand you’re sad. You feel like you have nothing. But look at what I just said to you. I am here for you. I don’t want you to go. I want you to be here. I will be your friend :3. I promise I won’t be mean to you. Unless you deserve it. 🙂
-Kriss (BladesxOfxHope)