so me and my psykolygist made a promise that between our talks there was no cutting and i felt like it was a big promise so i didn’t cut in a few months but yesterday i culdn’t keep it any more i did cut one slit on my hip and it felt so good i have been missing that feeling for so long and i felt a releif after that one slit and now i’m so afraid that i keep cutting i do not wanna go back to that habbit
but on the otherside it felt so good that i just wanna keep going i just wanna take the knife and cut and never stop again i really wanna and i just had the worst anxiety attack i wanna go i wanna leave now
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I understand completely. A little over 6 months ago I began recovering from an eating disorder and cutting. I hurt myself because it felt so amazing, even if no one else understood. Since then I have messed up a few times, but I always pick myself back up. It’s okay to mess up every once and awhile, but remember why you are getting better in the first place. You said it yourself, you don’t want to go back to this habit, you’re in control of yourself. No matter how hard it might be, resist the urge. Imagine yourself saying “I made it one year without cutting.” You can do it!
thanks it helps a bit to imagine myself saying that in a year it would be awesome