Closed are my tired eyes
Gracefully the tears fall
As i begin to lose it all
I take a shot of whiskey
As my head begins to race
The cigarette is still burning
The sweet smoke is all I can taste
My body is going numb
No longer can i feel my toes
All i can see our my tears
As they fall onto my breast
There are scratches and dried blood
Pretty purpled bruises decorate my chest
Lipstick smeared and hair full of knots
I shove more pills in my mouth
Chasing it with three more shots
My body is beyond broken my mind completely lost
A lesson with a price
Myself an expensive cost
He was too strong, I couldn’t get him off
With his hand over my mouth
I kept screaming stop
His cold eyes just watched me as IÂ fought hard and cried
He crushed my soul over and over as he thrusted deeper inside
The world slowly went dark from the fighting and pain
I woke up bloody and dirty from the sound of the rain
Now the bottle is empty and the room spins
I put the razor to my wrist and rip it across my skin
The blood paints the floor everything is slowing down
The darkness is back again and its now all around
Empty whiskey bottle, a cigarette burning and a note
The blood coloring the white paper “I’m Sorry,” faintly wrote
I weakly smile as IÂ stare
At the broken body I just escaped
Indeed an expensive cost
For the price of rape.
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Wow…… I don’t know what to say to that? It’s a great poem but I feel wrong calling something of that nature and its subject matter great.
Theirs only more, and dont worry i’m glad you think its good, its the only thing that makes me feel better anymore
If you don’t mind me asking, who was it that did this to you? My father sexually abused me for years.
my brothr when i was 8, my grandpa when i was 5 till the age of 8
Do you see them often?
grandfather died, went to court agaist my brother on october 2, 2011
What happened in court? My father was convicted of a long list of crimes. 50 years to life.
11-1 the jury was hung about 6 months later my brother plead guilty a year of jail looming over his head if he doesnt complete his parol but he is regestiered as a sex offender so if he does this again he will go to jail for multiple times :/ it was the best i could get and i didnt want to put him in jail.. even after all that he’s still my brother.. and i still love him..
I get it. I understand. I feel the same way.
I don’t. How can you still love someone who did that to you? How?! Sorry…it’s just…so many of the stories on this website break my heart and make me want to cry… 🙁
Why are people so evil to each other? I just don’t understand… 🙁