Why Is This So Hard?

I know exactly how you feel. And I know if I try and do it, I’ll stuff it up. Your body wants to live even if your mind doesn’t.
You sound like me. How old are you? I’m 24.

15! You’ve got to hang in some more, Cass. You’ve still got options and choices and chances. I’m not going to lie to you – there is every chance that your life will turn out completely crap, but there’s a chance it won’t too.
And I understand how hard it is when you’re self conscious. I’m the fat girl with the disability. I’ve always been no one’s crush and no one’s plus one. Trusting men has led me to be raped and sexually assaulted, and in 24 years I can count the number of men who wanted to actually date me, not just screw me, on one finger. And I turned him down as I was too terrified of having to talk to someone for a few hours who might be interested in me as more than a friend.
A piece of advice – most people are horrible and most people are users but there are some people out there who are worth getting to know. And there is always someone who’s problems are the same or worse than yours.