Neva again

So i ve dcided that i would neva fall in love again.WHY?.
Cus i ve got ds long dstant girl friend that loves me so much,but i cant continue paying the exorbitant phone bill that the relationship demands,.we had this phone relationshp for a year then she paid me a visit..i ddnt have my own apartment so i had to use my friends own..WAS SHE EVERYTHING YOU IMAGINED?
yes she was.and even more.she loved me for who i am and never pretended about anything.though we didnt have sex during the period she was around.boy! she changed everything about me.she bought me so many things i shouldnt begin to mention..we would spend the day playing games and faking fight and at night she would we lie flat on our back outside staring crazily at the stars..it was one of those nights that she told me we both had one soul.i believed..i loved her and i still very much do..THATS NICE.SO WHATS THE PROBLEM?.
I cant afford the call cost any longer.i know she would ve been calling if she was at home.but no she is in a kick ass catholic university and calls are limited to the utmost minimal.she wont undrstand me and she would tell keep telling me that i am so uncaring.but i am not,its just that i dont have the money to call her..i go to college straight from the house were i stay with my dad and mum.but i hardly get money for myself.and even if i do.i wld have to use it in paying of overdue loans and debts..i just wish she would stop telling me she wishd to hear my voice anytime my phone account is empty i hardly sleep anytime it happens..i told her i do not deserve her but she told me we were neva made to dserve each other cus we were made for each other..i just cant keep this up..i really do not deserve anybody in this 21st century.i promise you.i dont.
SO WHAT DO YOU PLAN ON DOING?
I ve done it already.i told her yestrday that i was tired of the fights that erupts from my not calling her and that i cant go on like that.she tried called ystday and asked me to call her back but i couldnt.
WHY?
Wtf! Dont you get it.i said i dont have money.
WHY DONT YOU GET A JOB OR START SOMETHING?.
Yea! Right brilliant idea.i have tried so many things but guess what they didnt fly because of my poor or no capital base.
WHY ARE YOU NOT CONTEMPLATING SUICIDE SEEING YOUR LIFE IS JUST SUCH A MISERABLE WRECK?
In a part of my heart.i believe one day things would get better and i may get the chance again to prove to her and everyone that i was worth it..but that hope is already dying.
SO WHATS THE NEW PLAN?
I ve decided to live my life move on and forget she ever came into my life.
BUT DONT YOU THINK THATS VERY STUPID OF YOU?.
Yea!right whatever.