I am frustrated because, the methods I think of to try suicide don’t work or I don’t know how to do.  Also I am stuck at home so I would have to pay for a hotel, and a lot of methods wouldn’t work well in a hotel.  Like hanging is one that seems could work but, I don’t see how that would be possible in a hotel room.  I’m just so mad that the method I looked at wasn’t very reliable the more I read, because I had a sense of relief when I thought that would be the one.  I’m just so mad that I can’t easily and privately take my life.