Bummer.

Yeah, all other plans of attack kind of stop dead in their tracks when you lack the desire to even help yourself. I know how that feels. I’m sure there are things I could do right now to maybe try to improve things, but in some way I just don’t want to. If I wanted to, I would. But sometimes I’ve found it beneficial to just accept myself for the way things are and not worry about it for a while, kind of like you are doing now. I don’t think you need to go and do anything drastic, but if for the time being you don’t feel like trying to “fix” anything, then just “be”. People always try to figure out the meaning of life and they always make it into a big mission, either becoming something else, or buying something else, or finding something else, but I think a key to the purpose of life sometimes is just to be what you are right now and not always have to desire something else. Successful people might seem happy but some of them are just so addicted to challenging themselves to one thing after another that they never take the time to just stop and be happy. Feeling a sense of completion is something that can escape people their entire lives. So if you’re not feeling like making any huge changes right now, I don’t think there’s anything wrong with that, but I don’t think you need to stop living either, and I think it’s good that you chose to stay out of a relationship rather than forcing yourself into one for the wrong reasons. Right now you aren’t feeling any huge motivation to change, so just do what you’re doing, and maybe some morning you’ll wake up and decide that you do feel like challenging yourself to make some changes or go on that date or try to do something about your weight. No point trying to force it. Just see what happens.