I just want someone who understands this emptiness…
Somehow the pain that I used to feel so long ago has become something constant even when I thought it was all over, I tend to pretend smiles and create banal conversations with my relatives so they don’t think I’m up to this all over again… it’s something I do without thinking, just feel they’d be better on the ignorance.
And then after faking so many smiles I’m too tired to feel the pain and feel nothing but emptiness, the worst thing that could happen because the inner empty make me be cold and careless besides the fact that it’s like I’m a puppet and can’t do anything withousome no one else’s direct order or approval.
you know what’s worst of being empty? I won’t do anything to end with it.
Curious how every couple months I end up in this place looking for understanding after I say “life is great” or crap like that.
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I understand.
:-]
🙁 Sigh. I understand too. I just hope you get to that “life is great” crap again… even if it lasts for a little bit…. maybe it’ll stick…….. you never know. 🙂
No, you never know and so I keep here… I never expected that my life would be saved by a bulgarian angel so imagine, maybe I’ll find strong reasons to feel happy again 🙂
AngelLilith
“I just want someone who understands this emptiness…”
well you come to the right place!!! we all feel that way at times!! i think everyone does. you will be ok.
You know that song Pain by Three Days Grace? It says “I rather feel pain than nothing at all” And I just relate sooooo much with it… when you feel emptiness ot nothing it’s like you can’t make anything to change it, I’ve seen people here that actually act on changin even if it isn’t the right way to.