I don’t know what to do. I can’t get help, I just don’t know who to go to. My parents emotionally abuse me… They yell at me and tell me horrible things so often that I started to believe them. Then I learned my “friends” aren’t my friends. So I was left alone. My brother is also horrible to me, he treats me as bad as my parents treat me. I feel like I’m out of options.
I cut and have been cutting for a while. My mom saw some cuts once and started to yell at me and curse me. She told me though, she wouldn’t tell my dad, which is good as I can’t even start to imagine the horrors he would do. I don’t know what to do. I also have been purging a lot lately, a habit I started over a year ago. It’s so hard.
I know I don’t have it bad, but it feels like I have nothing to look forward to. I just want to die, and hope that when I fall asleep I won’t wake up. I feel awful venting this to you guys because my problems are nothing compared to a lot of other problems people have but it’s so hard for me. I’ve lost so many friends and people think I’m a freak. I’ve been called so many different names and judged so much.
I think I’m getting close to the edge. I just can’t take it anymore.
I know its hard for everyone. I just wish it would be easier.
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Please, stop cutting yourself and purging, it only makes you feel worse. 🙁
I wish i could be there with you and make you feel better, but i can’t, so you’ll have to find a friend who trully cares for you close to you. I know how hard it is, i myself don’t have a single girl who cares about me, i don’t even touch people anymore.
I hope you have a friend there, and you feel better soon. 🙂
I know it is. It’s hard for all of us and we wish everyone the better, and the people who make it out, all we can do is be happy for them and all of us who are stuck, all we can do is keep wishing. I wish I could say something to help but I come on here when things are darker than ever so I can’t give any enlightening words but stay strong.
Your story really hits me, you remind me so much of myself… My family is emotionally abusive too, I’ve self harmed for a while. I know what its like when your family cannot understand. But there is hope, don’t give up now, you can get out of this! It’s not how bad you think your problems are, its what you feel. You really need to get some help. There is hope. If your parents won’t let you, there are online sources and people that you can call. Find something in the world, anything that makes you happy, makes you feel safe. Even if it’s a tv show. And you will leave home in a few years, and things will start to improve. Don’t give up, you are so valuable. You are loved, even if you do not know it yet.