I’m 14 years old i am sick of living most of my life i wanted to die i have recently been diagnosed with aspergers i left school because i get to worried and scared then i end up getting angry everyday something bad happens there is no good days and i just think about dying everyday people say sickening things to me that make me just want to rope myself ive tried to kill myself loads of times but failed i dont deserve to live i am just a waste all i think about is not breathing people have said horrible things about me and made up sick rumours which has damaged my self esteem and now i feel very fucked up there is no point on me living i wont get married or anything i dont have any confidence at all my life is ruined and there is nothing i can do about it i will be alone for the rest of my life i might aswell kill myself now i am embarassed in everything i do my life is getting worse and worse everyday i am just a fucking freak i want my throat slit fuck this
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I know how you feel. Myself I have been diagnosed too with Aspergers, not even that long ago(I’m 20 now). I know how it sucks, and how the suggestion sucks that your life is going to be crap. I know the way you feel and myself I do not feel any different.
Try to get help, aspergers is something that is taken more and more serious over the time and there are good programmes(that is what they keep saying) that can help you with your problems.
Just remember this; You are only 14 years old. You can try and get some help and at least try or you can go into the next few years living in depression and missing out of what should be one of the most beautiful parts of your life, not to mention your future.
You have the chance to fix things, take the chance, because i can tell you things are going to get worse when the world arounds you grows up, develops itself and the gap between you and the world only gets worse.
Maybe not the best motivational text out there, but you have the chance to fight, so take it.
I’m an aspie too, you’re not alone and it’s not always a bad thing…