new perspectives.

In my last post, I’d shared how I felt, after taking the pills. I was finally satisfied..thinking that everything will be over soon. but it wasn’t, they weren’t the right pills. I’d been devastated in the morning..I was just so unhappy, I’d never cried so much, as I had when I woke up today. but as I went to school, led my normal life, some things got better..I felt happy, at some point I was so happy my stomach hurt. I felt okay,throughout the day when I had the worst beginning ever. it made me realise something..maybe this is God’s way of showing that He cares, He showed me reasons to hold on today.my dad even mentioned this one thing today, that people who commit suicide, only pass on their misery to others close to them, and that might last life-long. i dont want that to ever happen,even if only a handful of people were affected, i’d hate that. this gave me a lot to think about..Im going to try harder..to hold on..for my lovely friends and family. life is supposed to be worth it isn’t it.