I am full out screaming on the inside as my life feels so out of control.
My life should be more even keeled than it is and I am so fed up with trying to keep my balance and do the right thing all of the time. I know I could just go to bed but it is better to dump this poisonous mood on here and get it out of my physical body. I want to have what I believe is a better place to live, in a better area and the thought behind that is that if I am in a better physical place it will translate and rub off on me to be better and do better and live better.
Suck it up kiddo, or do what I can to improve the situation as I see it needs improving… when is good enough simply enough or do I need to always be upgrading and moving upwards and if I am not “improving my lot†does that mean that I settle? Have I settled? Do I take a chance and a leap of faith???
Yes I do take that chance and leap of faith because I am hopeful so hopeful
and tomorrow starts a week long seminar of job searching…. I pray it is not a challenge that I cannot meet because I just want to cry and roll up into a ball and sleep and sleep and not put the effort into this week long seminar.