I have decided. I actually decided this a while ago. I’m going to leave on Thursday. I’m not sure what will happen. I don’t even know if I am going to die because there is this guy I’ve been talking to.  Half of me hopes he stops me, But half of me hopes he won’t care. Even if he does help, one day I will kill myself. If he does happen to help, maybe I’ll post something Friday to let you all know I’m OK(sort of). Or maybe I just won’t and I won’t ever come back here. Who knows anymore.
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I’d like a Friday post, but hope to see one sooner that says you’ve changed you mind.
I wish you success in watevr you decide to do-good luck o_O
If he loves you don’t do that to him its not only fair to him but you may find happiness with him… In my shoes, I drove the love of my life away and was too blind to see it and now she’s gone and now that I finally realize what I was doing and know what I needed to do to fix it, its too late. So now I have given up and my time has come. But if you don’t want to hear anything else I say, please find life in doing the things I couldn’t, so when you find that happiness you can hold onto it. Instead of having to wear the burden and the agony and the shame that I feel everyday, knowing that the one person I loved more than anything and the one is give my life for and who I swore is never hurt is gone because of me. How ironic… And now I will give my life for her because I vow to take my love for her to the grave with me and I do not want to my life without her, and I never want to let any other woman stand where she stood and still stands in my heart.
Please don’t do this to yourself. Are you trying to see if he cares for you enough to try and save your life?
I really you’re still here :/ It would be awful for the world to lose a wonderful soul. Please still be breathing x