im ruining it. im fucking with it. im going back down in a never ending circle.
I seriously get fucked up on pills DURING SCHOOL? to get a high feeling? and shit did that work! wasnt long before my hands went blue i was freezing cold i had no sense of what was going on. i could barely speak, but i felt so good! my heart was pounding i could feel it perfectly! i just stared at random shit like a dumb fuck..when the school had to call my mom i was pissed..i then realized what a mistake i made..again. now im starting back at square one. i wish this would stop. i wish i can change. i wish to be happy but theres more then fucking with pills on my mind. dad has sued my mom and i may have to go speak to a judge as well…atm i wanna be with my dad even though i fucked up he gets it and is trying to help me..my mom is being a major ***** about everything..i just dont know what to do now..im ruining everything.
what have i done to myself?
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Keep doing it, It’ll be your death.