Another sleepless night. I’ve been wanting to go to class less and less. It used to be that it at least distracted me. Now I just don’t really have the will to go.
I honestly cant remember the last time I was truly happy. I’ve lost all interest in things. I was okay for awhile but I’ve just gotten worse and worse. I really  can’t stand the thought about going to class and seeing friends and having to fake a smile. I have a couple close friends, they say they care, but that’s all that is right? Just words. Its been weeks and not even a single text or call to say hi or ask how I’m doing. I try so hard to be there for people. But here I am now, and they don’t even realize how terrible I’m doing right now. I really need someone. I hate feeling so alone. The only thing that really seems to calm me now is the thought of not having to wake up anymore. I really wish I could just disappear.