“wake up” no one says and she rises to a lonely cold morning, its only four and shes not tired.. she walks to the kitchen, feet padding softly on the white tile. The bright glow from the fridge lights up half of the small apartment and she sighs. “thanks for the dinner.” she muttered in pain, the girl hadn’t eaten in two days because everyone else got to the fridge first. after a burning hot shower she stood in front of the steamy mirror staring at her horrid reflection.. tan skin, almost boy short tangled hair and scars on her face.. the girls took her razor and caressed her belly. “if i cut this off.. id be skinny and pretty like those popular girls… im so gross”
she stared at her fat cut up legs… “ill never be able to wear skirts because of those.. boys like skirts right?” back to her face but she was already crying
school time four hours of cahsee testing done and he walks by. the tall man with shaggy black hair, the one who smells great and makes me smile. The boy handed her a note and walked away. *sorry, im just not interested in you.. sorry, i dont mean to be rude but i like amamnda*
“micheal… no” she whispered to herself her heart and lungs about to explode. she ran into the bathroom ignoring the line, flung herself into a stall and dropped her pants cutting a long deep line into her thigh and thought REJECTION, GROSS, FAT SLUT WHO WOULD WANT YOU!?!?!?!
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This should be under Rants.
-_- fuck them i’m sure there is someone out there for you. I’m positive there is.