Apologies

I’m sorry I don’t meet their expectations for me.

I’m sorry I can’t find the motivation to work hard anymore.

I’m sorry I thought they would always be there for me.

I’m sorry I can’t stand the sight of my own reflection.

I’m sorry that I always sleep too much or not enough.

I’m sorry that I feel the need to lie to everyone about my feelings.

I’m sorry for wanting to kill myself,

and I’m sorry for not offing myself already.