Motivated, sociable, confident, excited, content, carefree, intrigued: these are what i should be experiencing….i realise they are what normal people have. Ive been only able to get it from a pill or alcohol for a brief amount of time. Then back to lifeless, driveless, confusion, and anxiety.
I want to feel what most other people feel. No it is not a high as i once thought. It is normal regualr feelings i should be experiencing lile everyone else.
I am not weak i am not lazy….. I am incredibly smart and strong.
if i held on for too long
….i can hold on for a little while longer.
See what life may bring.