It’s getting to me, my my feelings are finally catching up to my head. I can’t take what they say even though what they say is not true..I hate it, just hiding myself in my room watching movies all day or play video games, not texting a signal friend, just sitting here thinking instead, only coming out to eat. It was good for a while but now it’s bad gain you see that’s why I ended up here again.
I’m like you, although I simply don’t care anymore that I am considered a loner, or something which is looked down upon in this society, I just don’t mind … I really need to find a job in order to be less dependent on people working in this society, also I don’t have many friends, no income whatsoever, no sport, no school/training (which makes me a NEET) … yeah I’ve alot to worry about, and not without a reason, but I just don’t fit in this society, and really need to take control over death, how to die and when to die.
I hope you figure a way out of your “bad” habit, and find a way in this modern society.