Me too. I think you can convey an image as a defence mechanism. Thats probably why your not allowing anyone to get close. I normally produce my best under pressure. Someone once wrote a song entitled “Me against the world”. That’s how I see it.
I don’t think it will appeal. Besides, it’s not good to isolate yourself like that and see the world as a problem. It’s not. It’s annoying that I can’t become completely focused on myself. Ideally I’d like to be nonchalant but not dismissive of others. I wouldn’t want to concern myself with people generally. I’d like to be more thoughtful and use fewer words. I’d like to be able to assess a situation from every perspective have the correct approach to a problem. I felt that at my best I was a lot better than this, a lot better. I’m not a weak person, I’m very vocal, temperamental and will never go down without a fight. I just don’t know what I’m fighting for anymore. Its not all psychological but I think knowing I’m not where I want to be is a barrier. The natural scope just isn’t there. I don’t want to make excuses for myself, i’ll have every chance if good enough. Once if some was negative I’d find it hilarious, I was brimming with confidence. This time I want to be different. Economical with my thoughts and actions, in absolute control. I don’t know whether any of this makes sense, you can relate or find useful. I suppose, I’m trying to say that you can find enough improvement in yourself, maturity in handling a situation so that nothing really matters to you at all and your in command of yourself, your world. Nothing can hurt you.
Shit, I wish I was tall. I’m average height. I know about pushing people away. I’ve done it before, dude. Being honest is actually good. I wish there were more people who are honest.
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Me too. I think you can convey an image as a defence mechanism. Thats probably why your not allowing anyone to get close. I normally produce my best under pressure. Someone once wrote a song entitled “Me against the world”. That’s how I see it.
I’ll Listen to it right now
I don’t think it will appeal. Besides, it’s not good to isolate yourself like that and see the world as a problem. It’s not. It’s annoying that I can’t become completely focused on myself. Ideally I’d like to be nonchalant but not dismissive of others. I wouldn’t want to concern myself with people generally. I’d like to be more thoughtful and use fewer words. I’d like to be able to assess a situation from every perspective have the correct approach to a problem. I felt that at my best I was a lot better than this, a lot better. I’m not a weak person, I’m very vocal, temperamental and will never go down without a fight. I just don’t know what I’m fighting for anymore. Its not all psychological but I think knowing I’m not where I want to be is a barrier. The natural scope just isn’t there. I don’t want to make excuses for myself, i’ll have every chance if good enough. Once if some was negative I’d find it hilarious, I was brimming with confidence. This time I want to be different. Economical with my thoughts and actions, in absolute control. I don’t know whether any of this makes sense, you can relate or find useful. I suppose, I’m trying to say that you can find enough improvement in yourself, maturity in handling a situation so that nothing really matters to you at all and your in command of yourself, your world. Nothing can hurt you.
Shit, I wish I was tall. I’m average height. I know about pushing people away. I’ve done it before, dude. Being honest is actually good. I wish there were more people who are honest.