My family hates me and I have no friends. I’m not good enough for anyone. I haven’t had a real friend in two years. I lost all of my friends two years ago and I have no idea what the hell I did for them all to hate me. They just all stopped talking to me and now all the people I talk to are fake and talk shit about me but the only other choice I have is to be alone so I suck it up.
Two years ago my “best friend” wrote a note about me. She said that I was fat, had no friends and deserved to die. She said that everyone secretly hated me but they were too nice to tell me.
Ever since she wrote the note I haven’t been able to trust people like I used to because I know that everything she wrote is true.
I don’t deserve friends, I don’t deserve my families love. I don’t deserve to be happy.
I’m a waste of space and I should just give up.
My life has been so shit and this is only making it worse. I’m so tired of it.
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Oh shit.. ambermaxie, I do not have time to reply on this site. But I have been there, I still have my note from my ‘Bestfriend’ . ah.. look the world is gigantic , but yet so small. your not alone, and you do not deserve it. im kind of guessing your age. a tad bit.. but im sure, you have alot of life to live . a lot of time. a lot of paths and choices.
One day you will be a freee person,
I can imagine. and if so, you can get away, and start a new. as everyone has a chance to do so.
Loneliness is an awful thing , but yet fruitful in the knowledge gained [through solitude.]
If it makes you feel any better, the only real friends I have are online friends. And it’s only just one person.
It’s easier to have online friends. They’re more faithful and honest.
I’ll be your online friend, I mean, if you want me to.
I have a couple online friends but we hardly talk. I’d love to be online friends though !