I should leave

Have you ever wondered what you might accomplish if you stopped focusing on suicide.
Strange as it may sound there is a addictive quality to suicidal thoughts.
The purpose behind thoughts on wanting to die is to get our attention that were holding onto something, a attitude, belief system, job, partner what have you that is getting in our way of becoming and that we must let die.
Letting go can feel like dying, it usually a loss and it hurts. Because it hurts we would rather do anything else but let it go and experience that pain so we rather physically die. The irony is that by not experiencing the pain of letting go of those things that are getting in the way we experience a greater pain.
And so the loop continues.
Eventually it gets so messed up that one of the things we must let go of is our suicidal thoughts. And yes letting go of that will also be felt as a loss and any loss must be mourned before we move on