I’ve been hurt a lot from someone I trusted I actually think I loved him I let him get a little close still arms distance. He knew things about me he knew I cut and I am suicidal. I did not tell him but he surprised me and just showed up I forgot to put a jacket on and he saw the new cuts. He got angry really angry. He told me I was selfish and then he just left. I always thought that I liked being alone but no I’m just afraid that people will leave. I thought that a normal person would hold me and tell me everything will be alright. I don’t think there is any one on this earth that understands me.
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@ Notalrightatall He got angry because you’re hurting and you cut?! Hmmm… I wish you could find someone in real life that you could trust but… in the meantime we’re all here for you if you need someone to listen to you, or a piece of advice, or anything! 🙂 How are you today?
Yes, I guess we are selfish. We are doing physical harm to ourselves to hurt other’s. others. OR….for me, I do it to try to stay alive. I do it because it’s like popping a balloon…all the pressure (emotions) are built up and cutting deflates that balloon.
There are people that understand. We are here.
@girl interrupted Hmmm… why are you selfish if you hurt yourself? (sigh) I understand too… the urge to harm myself… Sometimes the pain is so intense that I can’t even think anymore… can barely breathe… I’ve never cut but did other things… But now I know that there’s hope for a better future… hope for everyone… What do you think? 🙂
I think cutting yourself is less selfish then killing yourself so I’m trying not to hurt people. I learned that someone always gets hurt.
He’s a jerk.