Why do some of us constantly get shit on?

I was starting to feel better and working on getting myself straight. But fuck it these people I call friends they dont care. Its funny its obvious im a drunken mess and struggling but no one seems to care. Why should I even bother to start a conversation about how I feel when its obvious they dont care. Humans are fucking sad pitiful creatures its all always me me me. I always give 100 percent of myself to people when they need, no matter how minimal there bullshit is. Well see idk how this weekend is going to unfold, but I really cant take much more shit. If I do it Im posting all my posts are here publicly so all these fake ass people can see it. Its hard I have a good family but im tired of being put under there stress’s im not going to be a   perfect kid, I do things the hard way. Anyway since my accident I just haven’t been right  cant seem to shake the pain.