I’m angry because people make me feel like I’m not good enough. I’m angry because I’m not. Most of all I’m angry that is rips me apart. No it won’t matter what anyone says. My dad told me to go make friends I can’t make friends because I’m not good enough.

Well I guess I’m not angry anymore about this I guess I’m just really sad. Nothing adds up people think I have problems. Ha. There right I’m one fucked up person I was raised to be stupid and taught to be nothing at all. I hate this really I’m stuck and I can’t get out.

I’m going to my doctor tomorrow I want to get off my meds I feel like that it’s mind control like there brain washing me to be normal. I get paranoid a lot.  I hope he does not weigh me I lost 10 pounds since I’ve seen him. I want to cut but I feel so guilty for doing it.. It’s almost not worth it.