my life is falling apart right infront of me i didnt get into the school i wanted i didnt get into the college program i wanted  i just suck at school now im alone n scared my friends dont know what i feel inside nor do i want to tell them n i just really want to just do drugs and drink. Ive never smoked anything or drank anything in my life but nothing has really worked out for me so far n im kindof losing hope for myself. im not sure what to do with myself anymore