Here I am again, almost a year later…  Nothing has changed for the better and only has gotten worse.  I am beyond feeling sorry for my self,  I have not found any love in this world.  I have gone through every negative emotion I can think of.  Now my “bad luck streak” has lasted for  almost 8 years!  I am beyond suicide now,  my heart is only left with pain and hate.  My mother died 2 weeks ago,  I guess good things do happen.  Now I only can hope that this planet will soon be destroyed!  It is all I have to look forward to.  I pray to the mother fucker “God”  that all the people on this planet will die,  it is so deserving of this death.  Humanity sucks,  The human presence on this planet should become extinct…….