It’s so pointless me being here, it really is. I really am a freak and a burden to everyone. Seriously, I used to be the target and now I find a target. I’m just so freaking twisted! 6years ago I turned violent and odd, not only do I lash out randomly and harshly ( I regret it instantly after) I use harsh words against people too. I don’t get it?! Surely after being the target of all these things I would help prevent it from happening and not cause it! My thoughts arnt normal ( and there is no way that I am waiting it down here) but there is no way that I can turn to my mother and be like “hey! Yeah I need mental help, call the nearest mental hospital” I’m only 15 turning 16 in a few days, they say this is a stage and it could be a cry out for attention, but if it is this isn’t the right type of attention anyone would want, not even the damned devil! I seriously see no point in me wasting anymore oxygen :/
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It’s not “funny, really” to be a little *****. Your post’s title is ironic, and it’s a giveaway.
<codeLittle *****…nice, yeah when o Said that I lashed out? I didn't mean every second of the day. It only happens when people sit there and insult me repeatedly for ages. But yeah sure whatever..Ill stick with the "little *****" thing, I wasn't writing this for sympathy otherwise I wouldn't have put that,thank you for bong honest
Society in developed countries has arrived at a strange place where half of us need anger management training. Basically they teach people to recognize the different steps in our anger. When we recognize the steps then we have options (and don’t just snap and lash out) we can bail out or at least slow down the train wreck.
There are probably anger management clips on YouTube and hundreds of great articles. But there are probably free support groups near you as well. In group you won’t need to do anything if you don’t want to share. I haven’t had anger problems, but I go to anger mgt group weekly bc it’s really interesting.
You’ll listen to people who struggle, people who are learning after years or decades of being victims of their own anger. It’s impressive and inspiring. And they really have great techniques, I think most people can learn most of what they need in 4-8 groups over 1 or 2 months. Sorry if I seemed harsh, good luck to you.
It’s okay, it unstandable, I would have reacted the same to be completely honest. That you for the advice and I will try it, hopefully it will help, many thanks