Recently, I have lost 2 people I knew through this website, and a couple more are very close. It’s saddening to me, and I’m sure there are many others I haven’t known that are gone too, so I just want to say rest in peace to those people, here, as a tribute to their lives. As for the ones I have known, RIP Charlie and Lexie, I know how bad you were feeling and I’m pretty sure you’ll be gone. And my best wishes go to those who are close to killing themselves.
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@VacatedHappiness (sigh) It’s so hard… I’ve gone through the same thing as you… I met my girlfriend/best friend (don’t really know which one) here, on SP, as well… It’s been almost four months since I last heard from her… I don’t know if she’s alive or not anymore… So I understand what you’re going through… Still… did you know that the Bible offers us hope that, some day, we’ll again see our loved ones that have died?
@just.me.20 Ha, I could end up losing the one I love this way, she was one of the couple that I said were ‘very close’. It is sad, very sad, even though I never physically met them, I valued them a lot. I’d like to believe in heaven and all that, but I just can’t, it isn’t in me to believe, I respect anyone who does, however.
@VacatedHappiness It’s crushing… the pain, I mean… I have never met her, but I loved her more than I’ve ever loved someone…
What I meant was that Jesus promised there will be a ressurection here on Earth… I didn’t mean in hell or heaven… But I guess… you also don’t believe in a God (correct me if I’m wrong). Did you always believe this? Or was it something that convinced you of it?
@just.me.20 You’re beginning to sound like me! I have never loved anyone as much as her and I would never be in a relationship with anyone else if she left because nobody could make me feel the same. The thought of her leaving just tears me up inside, I can’t take it. She is the only person that can make me feel anything really. No, I don’t really believe in a God, I’d like to, but I just can’t. I’ve always been someone more scientific and analytically minded, and I never found it as an option, but I want to believe as it would give me hope at least in death I suppose.
@VacatedHappiness Yup… that’s how I used to feel too… “When love breaks down, we both die”… And it did break down… She’s gone for good now… I’m not dead but I was so close…
You know… it’s very important, and normal I guess, to want to understand what’s going on around you. But the Bible and science don’t contradict eachother. Did you know that it contains acurate scientific afirmations (despite being written thousands of years ago)?
I mean, things only recently proven to be true…
@just.me.20 She is all I have left, without her, I have no reason to stay. I know they don’t always contradict each other, just sometimes they do. Additionally, I do find it hard for science to justify the creation of infinite time and space out of nothing. I don’t really believe either too seriously, I don’t really care often enough to think about it because I don’t care for anything really anymore.
@VacatedHapppiness My advice, I guess, is to hold on to your girl. Show her that you love her every day… Don’t let lies or anything else get in between you too… Maybe you don’t care about anything else… but you care about her. And you should care about yourself… cause how else could you be by her side? The Bible and science don’t contradict eachother. I think you should care to ffind out more about these things… because it affects you and everyone. I mean… you care about your future with your girlfriend, don’t you?
@just.me.20 I am trying my best to keep hold of her, but I can’t seem to. She wants to die and I can never get that out of her head no matter how hard I try. The relationship between me and her is complicated right now, I can’t talk to her much. I care about the future if it’s with her, but things are happening that make that not very likely at all. I think things will go badly soon for me (and possibly her) and we’ll both end up killing ourselves. At least you have gotten past your feelings that you can cope with them.
@VacatedHappiness It’s hard if she wants to die… and you’re not near her… I guess you could talk to her… and ask her to fight… for you, for your love… Isn’t your love worth living for? And… why do you say things will soon go badly for you?
@just.me.20 I have done, I have asked her and there is nothing more that I can do right now but wait for her to contact me, and I’ll probably told that she is going to kill herself. The reasons things will go badly are very complicated and I don’t feel like explaining them here or right now. I’m thinking enough bad things.
@VacatedHappiness Fair enough. If you can’t talk about your problems, it’s ok. (sigh) I was exactly in your position 4 months ago… My girl kept telling me that she wants to die… and after an email in which she said she’s ok and wants to talk to me… she dissapeared. But you know? It doesn’t have to be over… You don’t have to die over it… if she doesn’t appreciate your love enough…
@just.me.20 She appreciates it, but she knows I want her to be happy, and she is worried for the future. I can’t seem to change her mind on that. I don’t have to die over it, no, but I wouldn’t have a reason to be alive if she was gone and I’d still feel the motivations to die. So my death would be inevitable.
@VacatedHappiness It’s normal to worry for the future… But it doesn’t mean that you can’t do something about the future… If you’re young you can still do something in order to get together… What it is so bad that she worries about? Why does she want to die?
@just.me.20 I don’t really know. I think she is scared if the future, or sick of life. She doesn’t like talking about these things, they make her more depressed in times that she is feeling happy.
@VacatedHappiness Maybe you should ask her when she’s sad… find out what she’s really feeling. Maybe she’s afraid of the future… and it’s understandable living in the current times… But did you know that the Bible contains practical advice to improve our life and also help for people that are depressed?
@just.me.20 no I didn’t know that about the bible, actually. I have never really read the thing anyway. I just don’t know about anything anymore… I’m going to sleep now because it’s 1am and my sleep is terrible lately, goodnight wherever you are!
@VacatedHappiness Well it’s 3 AM here too so… If you want me to show you the ideas from the Bible… send me an email when you have time (I guess you know how to find my adress)… or we’ll talk here on SP some other time. Goodnight!
@just.me.20 oh don’t worry I’ll look for them myself when I next think about that sort of thing. And you’ll have a hard time talking to me on here because in hardly ever able to come on like now where I replied so late haha!