I feel horrible every time I look in the mirror. I hate the sight of my body and I try my best to cover up, though it isnt always possible. Now I’ve even started to turn the lights out in the bathroom when I step out of the shower so I dont have to look at my god awful body. The only part of me Im remotely proud of is my eyes, but that’s only because they’re not mine, they’re my mom’s.
I feel worthless, unlovable in every way. I like to read romance stories, but I always feel a pang deep in my chest because I know no one will ever feel that way for me. No one will brush the hair out of my eyes and whisper sweet nothings in my ear, no one will sit me.down at sunset and tell me they love me… It hurts, knowing you’re ogresque and the only glances you’ll ever receive is a second glance at the ugly chick before she can run to hide.
I hate myself.
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This is going to sound trite, but you have to love yourself first. Work on you from the inside out and then really love yourself. Look at yourself in the mirror everyday and say “I love you” EVERYDAY.
Cultivate the part of you you really like, if it’s cooking, or art, or dance, or music, or reading, or what have you, really master that skill. Be proud of who you are and the things you make.
Once you build your confidence you’ll be able to love yourself. People will be banging down your door to hang out with you. But start with you.
I feel the same way! I run past mirrors, avoid them in stores, don’t have one in my bedroom, have stuff plastered all over the one in the bedroom. Society has so damaged our self worth, it is so hard to change.
I struggle with the same feelings about myself. All I can say is that it’s true; you have to love yourself first. It sucks when you finally have someone to love you, and you can’t believe that they love you, because you hate yourself so much. I guess, I would say, now is the time to work on that self-love. There is someone out there who will love you (not just saying that–you’re worth it, and whether I know you or not, I believe that you are beautiful), but unless you can accept the love, it won’t work. And you know, this whole body image issue is only an issue, because of society these days. In Ghana, the bigger you are as a woman, the more beautiful you are, because it means you’re strong and can have healthy children. We’re just warped in other cultures. Your value as a human, as a woman, cannot come from anybody but you. Screw society! You’re beautiful!