If something is wrong, just write it down somewhere.
Maybe someone will find it. Maybe someone will become curious with whatever is in your computer, whatever is written in your notebook, or whatever is shown in your eyes.
Maybe they’ll see it. There’s still a possibility.
But for me?
Ah, they won’t. No matter how quiet I’ve gotten. Despite the number of books I’ve read about depression and their stories. Regardless of how many I give them, no one has found the signs.
But how could someone possibly find what they’re not looking for?
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Sometimes people aren’t very perceptive. I don’t know.
Begs the question why you are testing the people in your life in this manner and unable to be directly ask for what you need.
That said your friends and family may not be capable of providing the the help you seem to be asking for. Not because they don’t love you, but because they are too close to see clearly. As you may suspect your own pain is keeping you from seeing clearly.
You mention that you have grown quite and it’s not clear is this is in response to your depression or reaction to not receiving the response you desired form your indirect call for help.
The two most common responses to confrontation and fear of confrontation is silence or violence and silence is often a more violent and cruel response.
If it matters to you, want better, and don’t want to be passive aggressive you are going to have to say something.