random thoughts

just some random thoughts here. if you ever find yourself in a hospitalization situation remember this. at least for my insurance company-they won’t pay if the stay is considered involuntary. while i assume some sort of court action is needed, you don’t want to be stuck with a large hospital bill. last thing a suicidal  person needs. my shrink is pushing the dbt thing. has anyone gone through that? i have been trying to read up about it but the whole psychobabble thing is irritating me greatly. it seems like it is an insult to my intelligence. or maybe i am just being stubborn. either way reading about it tires me out big time. i rediscovered something i used to like to do when i was younger. when i was upset, pissed, whatever i liked to drive fast with the music cranked. what better way to drive fast somewhat legally than jump on the interstate?  nearly runover just trying to get on but whatever. reliving one of those fuck the world and everyone in it moments. didn’t go far for a variety of reasons, but there is always next time. going to be alone all day today and part of the night. should be interesting to see what my twisted mind comes up with. favorite band on the radio. you think AIC is dark. try TOOL.