Every time i’m happy .. life gets harder
Every time life gets harder, its difficult to be happy but the thing is when i do end up being happy life gets even harder then it was before. Gradually everything is falling apart … i have very few people left in my life and they don’t seem to want to listen. I’ve been strong for far too long and i know people will think i’m cowardly for taking my own life. But to be honest i just don’t feel like life wants me here anymore. I’m constantly lost in my mind trapped trying to free myself from the confusion and darkness. I’ve been trying for far too long now, trying so hard to keep my head up and staying strong, but it feels like every time i keep trying to gets worse as if life is literally telling me to kill myself. I don’t want to die but i can’t endure anymore of this suffering. Nobody in my family understands the pain and suffering i go through they think i am just attention seeking but in all honesty … i wish i was just kidding…. i don’t want to suffer anymore .. i want to be put out of my misery
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We, on here, understand the pain and suffering. Perhaps, not your specific situation. But I’m here for you. I want to listen. I absolutely, 100% believe that your life is worthwhile and that you matter. I want to hear what you have to say and maybe offer some help. Email: 201206346@panthers.greenville.edu
i don’t have outlook do you have facebook or msn?
Yea, I have facebook. Look for Nicole Marie Kiss. I’m from Huntingdon, PA. Hope that helps you find me!
Know that feeling .When you have people around you but still you feel lonely. When you cannot share your secrets and depressed thoughts you just feel like a loner .
I hope things get better for you.
Still if you wish to talk Just e-mail.
Moister.skater@live.com
Advice? dont try, just let be. I feel totally the same… I feel i need to try not to be too happy or ill just get the same amount of badness as i felt of happiness. My conclusion? No point trying to make it different itll always work like that.
Now i live one day at a time! If I feel too happy i know ill feel pretty bad soon as well, and then i just have to hope itll pass… so i can feel normal again.
People have been leaving me or me them, i now dont care i know im on my own and will always be anyway. Whether i like it or not, just cant make it be different. Maybe if i can accept it as it is, some day the course of things will change…….
its hard but the things is im only happy for a day then all hell breaks loose for the next whole week .. i’m getting pretty tired and and i can’t even sleep properly … its a never ending nightmare