first day of school. over. i did it.
let me just say, that school is a horrible invention. not the education part. i know, i am lucky to be getting a proper education, but the idea of putting 30-40 hormone filled teenagers in a small room for hours at a time is just cruel.
well there is this guy in my class. he used to like me. alot.
he liked me for three and a half years, right up untill he decided he was just too good for me. i understood. im not pretty or anything, and i had been given the chance to go out with him.
hes a jerk. he thinks hes too good for anybody and i just hate him.
well i want to hate him.
i want to hate him so bad, but i just don’t. i don’t hate him. i like him so much it hurts and whats even worse is that i had 3 and a half years to realise it, and now im too late. i want to punch him and kiss him at the same time.
now im starting to hate myself for it.
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Guys respond to indifference. You want him? Don’t let him know how much you care. It takes a lot of discipline but in the end it’s pretty much the only thing that works. Tried and Tested.
hmm, that does make sense. ugh why is everything so complicated
people want what they can’t have. odds are you don’t really want him. i was hanging out with this girl for awhile and the days she was distant, i really wanted her, but the days she showered me with attention i wanted her to go away. it happened so often it was stupid. i decided i didn’t really want her after all otherwise i wouldn’t go hot/cold like that.
Is it really that “people want what they can’t have”?
Or might it often be that “people can’t have what they want”?
I get pretty irritated when people seem to insist it’s always the former and never the latter.
I want what i want. When it’s something i Can Have, i feel great about having it, and don’t mind hoping for something that, while likely requiring effort, is actually attainable.
When i want what i want, but know that it was never possible… i tend to feel quite bad about that, but without the crushing debilitation of dashed hopes, since i always knew it was impossible.
When i want what i want, and actually have it, and then it’s revoked, arbitrarily, unnecessarily, due to twisting of words and misunderstandings, and prevented from ever being reachable… that’s when people say: “people want what they can’t have…”
As if i only wanted it once it became impossible.
Not everyone is that blatantly irrational. But apparently enough are that such ridiculous phrases and memes are repeated ad nauseam… which ultimately modifies the way “most people” think.
I think it’s more true to say “people want what they want, and it’s a problem when they can’t have it.” But that would require people to actually think before speaking, which i realize is too much to expect from “the masses.”
‘wanting what you cant have’ does have a bit of power, purely psychological, but in my experience if you really, REALLY want it, then like clever says your happy about having it.
I had a girlfriend once, I didnt fancy her but enjoyed her company, The fact I didnt want her for a relationship and kept saying ‘I think we should just be friends’ drove her crazy for me. I didnt want to lose her out of my life so I was with her for about a year and a half. She lost weight – I started to fancy her more. Cut a long story short it ended up the other way round! I wanted her and she didnt want to know! Her not wanting to know made me hurt and that makes you think about them…
The phrase is pretty true, but you realize at the end that it isnt real love – its just a fools game.
This is the root of the problem for a lot of people in this society.
People let themselves be COMPLETELY controlled by what they want, and despair and look to desperate measures when they can’t get those things.
Do you really want your mind and emotions to be at the mercy of others?
Ask yourself, how is what you’re going through different from an addiction?
Because what’s happening here is that you’re letting some asshole control your emotions. And no matter how much you want to hang onto your desires, you have to realize that THEY ARE NOT A PART OF YOU.
You have the freedom to decide what to do, and this is a truly beautiful thing. Don’t ever let anything take that from you.
Its natural to have wants and needs, if you don’t then you must be dead or something!
If you don’t want for anything then you don’t strive for anything that you want, thats the drive needed to keep most people functioning to some degree. Want a job you go and get one, want a games console you go and buy one. Trouble is with people if you want them they usually go the opposite way. Sad fact of life really.