I am losing myself

I was always bullied, they made me feel so unwanted, so worthless. Everyday I would Ty to act as though everything was fine and I would put a fake plastic smile to try to be normal, only to cry my eyes out when my parent weren’t home. I was drowning and had nowhere to go. One day I finally snapped. I went home and swallowed a handful of pills. If I’d didn’t throw up the glob before passing out I would have died. Years later, i would like think I am better but I am not. The bullying has started up again and my friends are turning out to be fakes. I am starting to drown again and I know I can’t go through this again. I am losing who I am because of how People think I should be.