Things have gotten worse, all I can think about is you and your new life and how i’m not a part of it and never will be ever again, I am heartbroken, so heartbroken, I wish we could be friends and talk but I’d just ruin everything for you, I want you to be happy but at the same time it kills me knowing that you’re probably the happiest you’ve ever been and it’s without me.
You have no idea how much I’m missing you, and you never will, I bet you don’t miss me at all, i wouldn’t blame you. The pain wont go away, you’ve been gone so long, and it just hurts so bad, i’d do anything, anything to bring you back home, i can’t stop crying, i can’t stop thinking about you, i love you so much and you don’t even know.
I dream everyday, actually i spend most of my time dreaming about if you came home, but i know it wont be like that, if you did ever love me, you wont anymore, i don’t go to college, i just sit inside smoking weed all day waiting for you, this has broken me, there’s nothing left, i feel dead inside.
I just cant live with this pain anymore and i dont know how much longer i can drown it out by getting high, i’m so scared, what if i never get you back home? what if i cant move on? what if i end up waiting for you forever, and you never come?
If this is how you felt when you left, i don’t blame you, i wanna run away from everything too, but i cant, so what’s left? I need you, no one else makes me smile anymore
I love you, please come back and dont ever leave me
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I’m sorry for your loss, but, if you want someone, you will have to draw them to you. This cannot be done by staying at home, smoking weed. I’m sure this is a very difficult time, every time I’ve experienced a desire to love someone it was cut short by extenuating circumstances. If you really love this person, love them more than life itself, you will be willing to pull yourself out of misery, to try again. Someone to love, that’s worth the shot, no matter how hopeless things may seem, it is always worth trying again. It’s easy to say to yourself “They must not have cared.” But you must also ask yourself, “Did I show her how much I loved her?” People can sometimes be oblivious to those who feel that they love them, I did this to someone once, who liked me to the point of obsession, but I was completely unaware and believed that I had no chance with them. By the time I discovered that they had really liked me, it was too late, I had already been dragged down by depression and they’d moved on to someone else. Don’t give up hope mate, hope may bring success.
Also, the “her” I used was in reference to myself, I’m not aware of your sexuality.
I can’t tell him how i feel, we can never be together, i’ll ruin everything for him, he moved away and won’t talk to me, we haven’t spoken for over 2 months and I was begging and begging him to come back but he wouldn’t, then every time after i tried to talk to him he ignored me, he really doesn’t care anymore.
I just wanna know how to make the pain stop