May 3rd Journal

I broke my fast. I feel terrible yet oh so good. Terrible because ana is going to be mad and I’ll never be as I want to in time but I feel good because I feel satisfied and accomplished that I’m fighting against this *****. But for now, I’ll keep trudging on, I’m going to start my fast again. It only lasted 14 hours, but this time, I’m aiming longer…. much longer. I will do this. I believe.