“Eat” says my body
“You’re fat, why would you wanna eat?!” says Ana
“I’m only doing this to support my mom” says my brain
“Go on and walk faster, you’re too fat” says Ana
“I don’t need to do this, I’m perfectly fine” says my heart
“Look at that roll. You’re fasting tomorrow” says Ana
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It’s really amazing that “ana” or a “voice” can take so much control over you. How she could be so much stronger than anything else, and you realize that you’ve admit to her again. You know it’s not good in some way, but still you’re listening to her and let her command you. I know what it’s like to have a best friend called Ana, I’ve been friends with her too, also now. I know it’s really difficult to go against her, and that you actually don’t want that, because Ana is your best friend and she is the only one that makes you happy. I hope you will realize one day that Ana is your friend, but that she’s also you’re worst enemy. Good luck hun <3 and remember that everyone is beautiful in their own way :).
@Engeltje Yeah it’s difficult. I’ve already found out shes both of them. Just sometiems I dont know how to control her. I dont want to fight with her so some day I just give in, other days I fight till the end, but she punishes me, makes me feel terrible. I end up cutting and it’s just so hard to stop. But thanks anyways 🙂 <3
How much do you weigh? Triple-digit or double-digit?
triple, I’ve dealt with ana most of my life but i’ve never let her take complete control. I struggle against her all the time and honestly its hard. Theres no winning and before you know it, all you’re gonna be is skin and bones.
Believe, stay strong, search for answers… and one day she’ll be gone for good