I am broken :(

I am falling into darkness,I try to swim up but can only sink down. I am overwhelmed with pain and emotion, surrounded by blackness,falling sinking down into the abyss. I reach the bottom,all i see is the darkness staring back at me, all I hear it the yelling and screaming of a shattered heart,all I feel is the pain of words and a blade running across my skin blood pouring out and hitting the ground like crimson tears shed from pain held in for far too long. Then it all stops. I feel nothing see nothing and hear nothing. I ask myself is this how it feels to be lost,lost in pain and emotion? Is this how it feels when you keep in all of those emotions for too long? It this how it feels to know everybody around you has stopped caring? Is this how it feels to give up and give in? You feel no purpous in life. You feel worthless and ugly. You feel like a huge waste of space. You feel BROKEN. Then I realize I am BROKEN and i have been for a while but its too late to fix me now. I gave up I don’t feel anything anymore, no love,no hate,no joy,not even sadness. I just feel numb. It’s as if I just can’t feel anymore. As if my senses have stopped working. I am Broken beyond repair.