Life is complicated and confusing. It’s filled with so much beauty and joy but buckets of pain. So much love but so much sadness. There is no escaping save for sleep. So if you are feeling like you’re ending is inevitable (which it is) and you may as well just pack it all in yourself (don’t) then put on your favorite song or go to your favorite place, and sleep. Be it in your car in a dead end somewhere, a park, under a bridge, on a roof. Just sleep. Don’t expect to feel better or worse when you wake up. Just let yourself rest. You don’t have to have it all figured out tonight. You don’t need to solve that impossible problem right now. Just lay down your head, cover yourself with a blanket or jacket, and close your eyes. Sleep is the biggest gift the universe has given us, second only to companionship, which isn’t always there. Sleep is always there. Â Good night.
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Ha, sleep is the worst. It allows my mind to make me relive all the fucked up things I have done in vivid detail. All my dreams are night terrors that tournament me. I really hope death is not like sleeping.
* torment not tournament
i have insomnia
no help for me
@phoe
That’s when you start hitting the reefer.
@noonoo12
Would you believe me if I said I’ve been smoking since 4 in the afternoon (it’s 1:30 AM where I am, early for me too)
I do agree with the OP though, “rest” is an underrated medicine. I just hate that my rest, whether it be full-on sleep or just relaxation, has to be medicine induced. Music helps too.
@phoe
Lucky you.
I haven’t smoked for weeks.
So guess how my quality of sleep has been.
Music does help though, yes.
Which medicines do you take for it?
I can imagine the word “quality” isn’t included in a list of what your sleep is like.
My doctor didn’t believe me when I was 17 and talked to him about my insomnia and he prescribed me an SSRI (Trazodone?) for it, but he had prescribed me a different one for two different “diagnoses” (bullshit IMO) so when I took them, and they combined, I had a horrible nightmarish trip proceeding a restless painful sleep and a zombie-like next day.
So now I don’t take what the doctors give and I take diphenhydramine. Simple over the counter crap. I don’t like taking it though, as it leaves me groggy the next day. Instead I overdose on coffee to forget how tired I am.
@phoe
You hit the nail on the head. Haha.
I don’t like the idea of sleeping pills. Not that I’ve ever manually taken some. When I was in the hospital, they’d sedate me most nights. I was too out of it to even ask why.
But that was the best sleep I’ve had in almost 2 years.
All sleeping pills have some kind of unwanted side effect. But drinking coffee if probably going to make the sleeplessness worse.
Have you tried Thorazine? It’s supposed to be strong. Not good though, if you like to tan.
It doesn’t make it worse, because regardless, I’m going to be awake. I could spend it in a groggy half aware state that often leaves me with a headache, or i could drink coffee until my brain finally shuts down enough and get a little more of a rest, albeit a smaller period of sleep. I like benzos for sleep, but I haven’t got a script.
Can’t tan, even if I’d like. I’m a ginger.
@phoe
Ah that makes sense.
How did you try benzos in the first place then?
And I still tan, even though I’d prefer it if I didn’t.
I’m indian.. and right now my face is way darker than the rest of my body because of how much I’ve tanned.
oh, such simple medicine there is to fall asleep guaranteed. Its all naturall. In our country is illegal, but it can also cure cancer and many other diseas…. Phoenix tears. I sleep like a baby, no matter what is bothering me.