It hurts, you know? To realize that you’ve failed so many people in so many ways and all you can do is scream. It hurts.
I cry and I scream and I slit my own skin.
I can’t stay anymore. I don’t want to stay. I love so many people and they don’t love me back.
Brooklyn’s opinion doesn’t matter, Brooklyn’s life doesn’t matter, Brooklyn’s worth nothing.
I’m worth nothing.
Nothing.
It hurts a lot. And I cry so much that I run out of tears sometimes. I’ve tried getting help but it doesn’t work. I’m just lost.
The monsters inside of me have just taken over. I’m so sorry. I’m so sorry that I failed you. I didn’t mean to, I really tried, I really did but I didn’t make it. I’m sorry, please don’t hate me. But you do.
And I hate me too.
“A drop in the ocean, a change in the weather, I was praying that you and me might end up together. It’s like wishing for rain, as I stand in the desert, but I’m holding you closer than most, ’cause you are my heaven.”
~Brooklyn </3
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I’m going through the same thing 🙁 It’s so hard.
It really, really is 🙁
What makes you happy? Try doing whatever makes you happy and step away from all the other bullshit.