lithium part 2

i feel like shit. headache, nausea, hot and cold, shaking, abdominal pain, diarrhea. thinking lithium is not for me. had blood test done on tuesday. but my primary hasn’t seen fit to call me with results. don’t see the shrink until next wednesday. so do i keep taking it or just quit ? because my shrink moonlights elsewhere there is no one easily accessible to ask. guess i will have to wing it. so if not lithium what’s next? i have done all the ssri’s and the snri’s. he says he isn’t giving up. implying i shouldn’t either. well about that. i am thinking that this life is bullshit. seems like any forward progress is always followed by some new trauma or issue. no good deed goes unpunished. i have stopped believing that life can get better. i have offended someone in a previous life and this is what i get for my trouble. an untimely death . can’t say i didn’t warn you.