So, anyone have any great epiphanies while I wasn’t looking? No? Okay. I have not had a great epiphany either so I know that feels.
Anyway, I would just like to say how tired I am of sleeping, how tired I am of regretting decisions that involved you. Ha. I can not even say miss you because in no way shape or form did I even come close to knowing you. Anyway, I am just so fucking tired of regrets. I am so tired of thinking about you. So tired of living, so tired of lying, so tired of pretending and so damn tired of wishing.
I wish I could post this on facebook. I wish I could tell this to everyone’s face. I wish people understood and accepted and…and…I do not know what I exactly want. Maybe I just want to not want.
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Hey there. This place has been pretty low on inspiration today. It’s pretty much been me and Donnie …and you know what that’s like! lol
Well I hope it picks up. I have 10 hours till work lol and I have nothing better to do.
Fresh blood. Hi. I just want to say I can relate. Play some games. Get a new addiction other than your own filthy thoughts that’ll get you kicked out of hell. This place, here, the present, isn’t hell. It’s poo, yes. But not hell. #justsaying
if they dont know you exist or acknowledge. they aint worth it. i know how it feels to think about somebody who isnt even a part of your life. still do but shes longggg gone..
Lol this is poo, watch the strong language until the kids go to sleep. Anways I don’t get addicted to much but addiction to thoughts are definitely one.
It’s 4h55 am and I haven’t slept properly in a few days. Lying in bed; thoughts in overdrive. I find it incredibly distracting to play online battles. Distracting in a very good way, you can’t pause yey. Rewarding as well. But I must admit that people find it much more shocking when poo is used. Instead of shit. Or whatever other actual cuss.
Lol my mind is a great multi tasker when it comes to contemplating these thoughts and doing almost anything else. I mean I drive a motorcycle and I could be on the highway and my mind will be like. Remember that one time…
That’s the problem!! Too jesus many different thoughts. At the same time. Until I go on Facebook and see what the rest of Retarded Capital is getting up to. Then it’s mostly pure rage.
^^ I knew you lived in Johannesburg
Dude. I am so confused. This was yesterday “Johanna’s berg” LOL. But I don’t live in Johannesburg. Johannesburg isn’t one of the capital cities, it is the biggest city in the country tho.